Another year of inconsistent blogging and subsequent apologies. I can say that most of this year I’ve had this lingering feeling of guilt that I haven’t been able to devote the time into something that I truly enjoy. Something that allows me to connect with others, which is this blog. Most of the year has felt like I’ve been stuck on a hamster wheel that I couldn’t get off of. Yet, I am a strong believer that things happen for a reason. I know that the events of this year have provided me with a host of lessons as well as an opportunity to let go of the things that don’t serve me anymore. These tough times have given me the chance to go in the direction that I want to. It hasn’t been an easy journey but I have found that things that are truly worth having often come after turbulence. Turbulence is the obstacle you must overcome in order to arrive at your destination, stronger, wiser, and better.
I’ve discovered that in order to achieve my goals I have to re-prioritize my lifestyle. This year my focus has been on “hustling” to make ends meet. This was a priority over my personal life which had taken a back seat. My days typically started at 4am and ended with making dinner around 8:30pm only to get to bed as soon as possible to do it again the next day. Day after day. I tried to balance out working so much with taking vacations which I was successful at, but ultimately this cycle of burning the candle at both ends, followed by basically collapsing for short periods of time, wasn’t taking me where I wanted to go. It was a means to an end and it seems the end has finally arrived, pending a few things.
I’ve decided to put my house on the market. I bought it when I was in another place in my life, I never get to enjoy it because I’ve been too busy working, it’s not in an ideal location for me anymore, and I simply don’t need it. At first this decision felt like a moment of failure, but after some reflection I’ve come to understand that I simply decided that it’s time to regain my personal life and pursue my dreams. I feel empowered by this decision and as people ask me- “where to next” my only honest reply is- “time will tell”. I’m happy to make that decision when the time comes and to see where the wind takes me.
Life is too short to waste on feeling as though you are running around in circles without a purpose. Choose the path that best fits with your priorities. Setbacks in one’s life can be a junction point. They can be another excuse to stay in a rut or an opportunity to grow. It is not the things we do that we regret, it is often the things we don’t do that we regret most. Our lives are ours to make the most of, I challenge you to assess your path and see if it aligns with your goals or priorities, more than anything I believe in all of you. I found that my path wasn’t aligned with my goals and I have made the conscious choice to not remain stagnant. I have chosen to fight for the goals in my life, to fight for my happiness, which includes this blog. I hope to reconnect with all of you.